(One shot) Strength

Title : Strength

Genre : (slight) Angst?ummm kay,I'm not good at genre o.o

Pairing(s) : KangTeuk plus some ninjas :DDDD

Rating : T

Warning : emo!Teuk is emo ._. , because the writer is emo-er

A/N : aaaaaaaaaaaaaah ;A;...adfksjsjshshsg idk...I think this fic is so lame.....

This is written for aniknskywalker unnie @ twitter .

The prompt's 'Reunion of lover'.But I think this is a complete fail x___x.

I'm sorry if the events in this fanfic those based from irl events are not exactly the same,because I was confused @_@.

And the ending is really lame too!And I deliver this sooo lateeee...sorry unnie TT.TT,okay...too much sorry...ORZ.

And as always,apologize for grammar mistakes too.Un-beta-ed

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Strength

As the leader of Super Junior,you always have to be the strong one.You have 12….no…14 brothers to take care,to make sure they are all okay.Among 14,one stole your heart,he is Kim Youngwoon,Kangin…..

He is quite an opposite from you,he is a hard headed man.He might look rough outside,but actually he has his own soft spot inside.As days passed,you’ve fallen slowly for him....he has become your strength….he always stays by your side,supporting you.If you’re super junior’s inside strength,then,he is super junior’s outside strength.You two support each others,become each others’s strength.

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“You have to be the strong one….” , says Lee Soo Man to you.

When Kangin was involved in the assault and DUI case,he’s being banned from Super Junior activity.Yes,of course,without being told,you would be the strong one…for the sake of everyone,for the sake of yourself too.

But,there’s one thing that hurts you the most,he says he can’t see you….for now….

“Kangin…please….let me see you for a while please….Kangin…” , you said to him with the door that separates you and him,because he insist not to open it,he doesn’t want to see you.

“I can’t hyung….please…leave me alone for now….” , he said,surprisingly,his voice sounds so calm.

“Youngwoon…please….” , you plead again.

“Jungsu-ah….” , he speaks again , “Just leave me alone for now…I’m too ashamed to see you and the others….I’ve ruined Super Junior’s name....I’m sorry...”

“You’re not,Youngwoon,please…” , you start to feel weak when you heard him say those words , “We forgive you,Youngwoon…please…don’t be like this”

“I can’t!Just leave me now!” , you heard him shouted.

You finally lost your strength,you fall onto your knees…and crying silently….holding on the door…

but still….he doesn’t come out as you hear silent sobs coming from the room through the door….

yes,both of you are strength for each others…and when one becomes weak,another one will weaken too……because you two are holding into each others,as inside strength and outside strength.

When Kangin just involved in the assault case,you thought it’d be alright later...well,not completely alright,but it’d be alright when Kangin is allowed to join Super Junior activity again after.

Unfortunately,everything was not going to be okay,he’s involved in DUI case now.....you can’t help but feel betrayed,so are the other Super Junior members.If he really felt sorry,he shouldn’t have done that.

Yes,he betrayed you,now,your other strength is gone……you have weaken…but you keep trying to be strong for the sake of your band member.Because if you break now,the others will break too.You only can keep everything by yourself,crying alone…without him.

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And so time passed,you and the other 10 members are continuing super show 2 tours even with the absence of the two members.First was Kibum,and now is him….Kangin.

But suddenly,the lawsuit between Hankyung….or Hangeng and SME exploded.You didn’t see this was coming,you thought everything about Hangeng were just okay...

This time,you can’t do anything,guilty,thats what you feel about it.You’re the leader,but you didn’t even notice how Hangeng suffered.....Even worse,Heechul fell into depression after Hangeng left,he doesn’t want to come out from his room.You try to do everything you can,thoug,you know you can’t do anything about heechul’s breakdown…because,just like you and Youngwoon.Hangeng is Heechul’s strength…he might never admit it….but that’s the fact,Heechul loves him,and needs him.

After 3 months,Heechul finally unlocked his door,when he came out,you hug him with the other members,you keep repeating one word , “sorry” , to him,because that’s the only thing you can do.

Now,with the absence of 1 more member,you and the other members have to work harder to fill the empty space.

At the same time,you only can cry alone,wishing him to be here with you,saying those soothing words,be strength for you and the other members as well. You haven’t seen him since that accident…..you’re holding onto yourself to be strong…trying so hard not to break….even without him.Even though you’re strong on the inside,you can’t help but weaken without the outside strength,right?

Months passed,with 10 members plus Zhoumi and Henry,finally finished the super show tour.

You finally came back to Korea....preparation for 4jib is going to be started soon,before that,you and the members are given time to rest for a while.

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“I miss them hyung…so much….” one night,Donghae suddenly say it all of sudden.

“Donghae…....” , you just call his name,you don’t know what to say.

“Hankyung hyung…...Kangin hyung.....Kibummie....” , he sounds like he is going to cry when he said the last name.

You get up from your bed and walk towards Donghae’s bed.Then,you hug him,so tightly.

“Yes,I miss them too....I miss them so much...” , you say as you’re trying to hold back your tears.At the same time,you can hear Donghae sobbing slowly.

Yes,you and the others miss them so much,you need them to be here...you don’t want to see your members break anymore.....thats why,you need to be strong.

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Today is the last free day for Super Junior before the practice for 4jib starts.You’re alone in the dorm,trying to do some clean up since the dorm has been left for months,you think there might be some places that are really dirty.

But,when you are just going to start,suddenly the bell rings.You decided to just leave it for later and go to open the door.But you didn’t expect that you would see him when you opened the door.

Him,who you have missed.......wanted...and needed....

Kangin........

“Hyung…”

You froze,you can’t respond him,you’re still thinking if the vision in front of you is real….if its really him…….

“Hyung?Jungsu-ah?” , he repeats his words,yet you keep being silence

After a moment,you finally respond him , “Youngwoon…is it you?really you?”

You walk closer to him,trying to reach his face,and he walks closer to you too.You cup his face,because you want to feel that he is real…..you want to feel his warmth that you’ve lost for these past months.

“Jungsu-ah…I’m sorry….I’m sorry….” , he says as he wraps his arm around your shaking frame.

You don’t answer him,you keep staying in silence as tears starts to falling slowly in your face….

“I’m sorry…I’m really sorry….Jungsu-ah…..” , he repeats his words again,and you two stay like that for a while….he waits til you calmed down….as you two embrace in silence.

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“Where are the others?” , he ask as you tell him to sit on Donghae’s bed.

“Heechul is hanging out with a friend,Sulli-ah from f(x) I think,Siwon is shooting his new drama,Shindong is meeting Nari,and I guess,Kyumin,eunhae,and Yewook are having a date…since we’re having free times til recording for 4jib starts” , you say and smiling to him,hope to get some response when you said ‘4jib’.

Yes,of course you hope Kangin will join Super Junior’s activity again and participate in the 4jib.

“Jungsu-ah….”,he finally starts to speak

“Yes?”,you answer him quietly.

“I…I’m going to enter military….”

“.................What?” , you ask him,not sure about what you just heard before.

“I’m going to military…..4jib.......I can’t join you and the others…..I’m sorry…..” , he says as he lowers his head.

“W….why?All of sudden.......” , you put your hand on his shoulder,while trying to calm yourself

“I’ve ruined Super Junior’s name….I can’t just go back like this….” , he puts his hands on top your hands those are resting on his shoulder , and he continues , “I want to be a better person…....and when I get discharged later....I will show everyone…..that Kim Youngwoon...Kangin...is not the same as the Kangin who has ruined Super Junior name...”

What can you do?tell him not to go?No,as Leeteuk,the leader of Super Junior,of course you have to let him,Kangin go.....because he is doing this for Super Junior’s sake too.....

But, as Park Jungsu,as yourself who loves him as Kim Youngwoon......you don’t want him to go....you want him to stay....because you need him.

But,nothing you can do about it...you have to let him go.....

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The ELF get shocked when its announced that Kangin will go to military,but also showing supports for him.Of course,you have to support him too,because everyone do.

But,when he appears on the fanmeeting,you and the rest of the members can’t help but cry....but,when everyone shout for you and him,for ‘KangTeuk’,for the first time...you’re sure that everything is going to be okay...yes...because KangTeuk is forever.....

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Super Junior continues to work hard to promote the 4^th album even without Kangin,Hankyung,and Kibum.But at that time,sometimes Kangin comes to the dorm too,giving and showing some supports,and of course,he stays beside you.You finally get your strength once again,at least,for now.....

And finally,the time has come,july 5,you have to let go of Kangin,and you’re not going to see him for a while......just for a while.....

Why?Because,soon,you will enter military too.

Actually,you don’t know what to feel about you’re going to enter military soon.In one side,you feel sad because you have to leave your band members too....but in other side,you feel happy because it means you can see Kangin there,right?

Nevertheless,your tears keeps flowing,especially when you have to release him from your hold....letting go of those strong arms those always give you strength.....

But,its okay.....because its just a temporary goodbye....

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Super Junior has finally finished 4jib promotion,and now SM Town Concerts and Super Show 3 are coming.

You thought you’re strong enough not to cry,but your tears fall again when you saw him during super show concert.

Its not a real him,not a real Kangin,but it feels like he’s really there....at least that’s what you and the other members wish so,and so are the ELF

SM Town concerts,because you’re too busy and worn out,you almost forgot Kibum’s birthday.You and the other members of course wish him to be on the stage,but still...he can’t.

Fortunately,Kibum comes to the after party,you see him first and hug him slowly.You tell him how much you and the other members have been missing him and want him to be back soon.After you let go of him,you hear someone so rushed coming towards you and Kibum,that’s Siwon.All of sudden,Siwon runs and hug Kibum so tightly....he looks like he doesn’t want to let him go forever....(though he finally does in the end),and there’s Heechul who comes to hug Kibum too,he hugs him as tight as Siwon did.

When Heechul lets go of Kibum,you talk to Kibum again.

“Kibum-ah....I’m sure you want to see someone so badly,right?While that person hasn’t known about your present here,why don’t you go inside and give him a surprise?” , you say to Kibum grinning.

Kibum looks up at you and say , “Yes hyung,thank you....” , he smiles and runs inside,to see the one who he has been wanting to see the most,Donghae.

You ‘re happy to see Kibum again,and you’re so happy to see Heechul,Siwon,and Donghae being so happy about Kibum’s appearance.....but you can’t help to feel a bit of envy....because you want to see Kangin too.

Just for a while,right.....its just for a while.....

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Time has passed again,Super Junior has finished 5jib promotion,and finally,your time has come.

Its your turn to enter the military.......once again,you feel sad yet you feel happy at the other hand.

Because you’re finally going to see him again,the person you have been longing to see,your strength,your love,Youngwoon.

Of course there are tears when the others have to let you go to the military.....you don’t want to leave them for two years,but you have to do it,you have to fulfill your duty.

And so,its your first day in the camp......you’re managing your things in your bedroom in the camp’s dorm.

New place,new atmosphere,new people.....at first,you think you’re not going to be okay here.....

All of sudden,you feel yourself being wrapped by strong arms......familiar ones

You turn around to see the ownder of those arms,yes,its him.....its him.....

You finally feel his strong arms around you again…..you can’t help but smile when you see him smiling too.

“Welcome to the camp,Park Jungsu-sshi”,he says while smiling goofily,arms still wrapped around your waist.

“Awww....why must you call me with that name,commander Kim?” , you grin,decided to follow his game.

“Something wrong about that,Jungsu-ah?” , he asks you and grinning too , “have you got any free time anyway?” , this time,he whispers the words huskily in your ear.

“You’re so naughty,commander Kim,what if someone caught us?” , you keep calling him commander Kim,even though it feels kinda weird.

“Its okay,I’ve just finished my training time,beside,I’m the commander here after all.“ , he keeps his arms around you,doesn’t want to let you go.

“......I would like to accept your offer happily,commander...but...there’re things I have to do first...” , you say as you take off his arms from you.He look at you confused.

Then you wrap your arms around his neck,and kiss his lips all of sudden.He look surprised and was not expecting this,but now,he’s kissing you back passionately.....its the feeling that you two have missed.....

“I have missed you,Youngwoon....” , you say after you two stopped kissing,you feel that tears are going to fall again,no,not here please....not in this place when you got to be strong.

He notices you’re going to cry and bring you back to his arms , “I have missed you too...Jungsu-ah...don’t cry...I’m here now...its going to be okay.” ,he says.

Right,why must you cry?He is here after all,he is your strength....he will keep you strong,he will not let you down.

Yes,Its gonna be alright,because when there’re both of you,you two will become strength for each others....nothing would be able to weaken you two.